Complex

I have spent the morning asking myself some questions that relate to my career/future, something as you may well know that has been bothering me of late (i.e. the past year and half)

I look back at the past few years and I wonder ‘Why did I not just commit to change at the outset?’

Of course hindsight is 20/20 as they say, and I did not know then what I know now. Having said that I feel as though I am still clutching at something that I know I passionately dislike – my current career. I put this down to fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of change, fear of failure, fear of taking action. Conversely however, I don’t feel like I’ll succeed in my current career anyway, so this really is a moot point.

But here I am again. Gripped with fear.

I find myself at yet another crossroads. No more or less significant than the multitude of crossroads I have experienced in my adult life. They are the same questions each time and the same excuses too. Usually in this chronology:

A)     What do I want to do?

B)      How can I make the transition easier?

C)      Can I make the transition easier?

D)     Can I even make the transition?

E)      What’s the least uncomfortable route to that destination?

F)      Are there any other destinations I could choose from?

G)     Maybe I can tolerate this personal hell for a little longer?

I realise the only significance in this situation is the decision I make and ultimately, the action I take.